Will
he still love me? was her first thought when she looked
in the mirror, naked, for the first time since her surgery.
She’d been avoiding it long enough—two weeks. At
some point, she had to face herself and then the world. Having gone to the
doctor’s office that morning to have the stitches removed didn’t count as
facing the world.
When she went back to work, when she began doing the
groceries again, when she went to her book club meeting, she’d be facing the
world.
What would they say?
She’d been able to gently wash the area and had
winced as it was a bit swollen and tender, but Dr. Mendelson had told her she’d
healed nicely. She’d had none of the complications that often arouse from this
type of surgery.
“You are very lucky,” he’d said. “No fluid buildup,
no tightness between arm and shoulder, no blood clot or infection. Very lucky!”
He’d placed his hand gently on her shoulder and patted her, as though she were
a dog.
He’d meant well, but he didn’t understand. She
wasn’t worried about blood clots or fluid—though she should be.
Will
he still love me?
She gulped around the hard knot in her throat and
watched as one-by-one, water drops trailed down the bathroom mirror and
bit-by-bit, the fog hiding her from view dissolved into water. At first she saw
only an eyeball—hers—and then her dark brow above it, soon her cheek and
neckline as well.
Almost too soon, her entire upper body was visible
to her own gaze. She shivered from the water drying on her own skin, from the
water making lazy and cold trails down her flesh, dripping from the tips of her
hair, over her shoulders, down her flat chest.
Soon, tears mingled with the remnants of her shower,
running down her cheeks.
With a shaky hand, she touched herself, touched the
angry red slashes where her breasts used to be, where the stitches had been
removed.
So
ugly.
She raised her chin and looked in the mirror,
fighting the quivering of her chin.
If she placed her hair just so…
Quickly, she grabbed her wet tresses, dividing her
hair in the middle, and placed the locks over each side of her sternum.
It was long enough to cover her empty cavities. It
trailed down her chest, almost reached her belly button. She didn’t look half
bad now.
She allowed herself a tremulous smile, blinked the
tears from her eyes.
“Darling, how do you feel today? Are the meds still
making you tired?” His voice surprised her. She hadn’t been aware he’d entered
the bathroom, but there he stood, right behind her. She gasped and saw her eyes
widen in the bathroom mirror.
“I… I feel okay,” she answered hesitantly and
glanced quickly around for her towel—something, anything.
And then he took his hands, cupped her long dark
hair, and twined his fingers in her wet locks. He pulled her hair behind her
back—undoing her oh-so-careful placement!—and placed a kiss on the nape of her
neck.
“I love you,” he murmured. “You are so sexy.” He
placed his chin on her bare shoulder, her red slashes clearly visible to them
both—and winked at her in the mirror.
Her lips parted with surprise, but before she could
protest, he was gone, having imparted one last kiss where his chin had just
rested.
She touched the nape of her neck and then trailed
her fingers to her shoulder. Her flesh tingled where his lips had touched.
Her lips curled up in a smile then.
“You’re very, very lucky,” the doctor had said.
Yes,
I am.
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Love it. So well written, tricky subject brilliantly mastered.
ReplyDeleteAnd - welcome to TT :-)
Welcome to the Tuesday Tales family. You will find a wonderful home here.
ReplyDeleteThis is such a powerful piece, writing about a subject that is so delicate. You nailed it. My grandmother had her breast removed when she was 64 and lived to be almost 92.
Welcome to the Tuesday Tales family!
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderfully written post. You handled a very difficult and delicate subject very well.
Tara, welcome to Tuesday Tales! I really enjoyed this piece. Such a natural and heartfelt scene. Very well done.
ReplyDeleteWow, what awesome writing. A lovely story, congratulations. And welcome to the TT family.
ReplyDeleteWOW- so beautifully touching!!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautifully felt and written piece, Tara. Welcome to the Tuesday Tales family. Your writing is amazing.
ReplyDeleteKaren, that is awesome about your grandmother, that survived and live to be that age. That's incredible! Thank you, ladies for your compliments and welcomes.
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderfully descriptive scene and so emotional
ReplyDeleteWow very powerful piece of work there. Very well written and you captured the feelings involved.
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